Kinky Sex Link

My gal pal J. recently brought up the subject of playing in public, and the issue of voyeurism…and it got me thinking…

Public play…so much fun whether you are watching or being watched. However, as many of my friends know, I’m not much of a voyeur. I guess I’m the greedy sort who would prefer to be the one playing. I can so easily put myself in their place. Feel the thud of the flogger, the tickley sting of the Whartenburg wheel.

::drool::

Yes, you can call me an exhibitionist, even perhaps an attention-slut. Oh wait, if you know me at all I bet you already have, haven’t you? LOL

J.’s question was partly about whether those of us who play publicly are cognizant of the voyeurs in our midst, or oblivious to their presence.

My personal experience is that I’m almost always at least partly aware of the eyes of the crowd, and yes, it enhances the experience for me. I’ve experienced this same dual awareness while dancing, and I can trace that back to my childhood.

(You know the little toddler who performs every time a camera is pointed in her direction? Yes, that was me.)

I enjoy this aspect of public play. I enjoy the feeling I get from knowing I may be providing entertainment to anyone watching. It’s a heady feeling; a satisfying form of service, I suppose.

I’m also someone who has a history of taking themselves far too seriously, and this kind of humiliation, brought on by perceived indignity of my position, is a great way to force me to lighten up.

I’m pretty sure this is not the same for everyone but it’s certainly my experience.

Of course this can mean that I’m not fully focused on my partner. I may be responding to his actions, to his words, and to his intents but not completely lost in him. A heady feeling I adore.

Mind you, I never knew a good dominant who couldn’t yank me back to focus with a well aimed blow, or a good drag of his fist through my hair…and I rarely notice the audience when I have a shiny sharp knife anywhere near my skin.

Interestingly enough, I’ve never thought to ask my play partners whether they’re aware that my attention is being split between them and the audience, and how they feel about that. After all, bottoms aren’t the only exhibitionists out there. I know a few dominants who love to draw attention to their skill and prowess.

Just of the edification of the newcomers in their midst, of course!!

::insert tongue firmly into cheek::

Still, now that I think about it, it would be an interesting conversation to have after my next public scene.

Food for thought.