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For Christmas Master and I had a Domme friend over. We had a wonderful evening of food and friendship and conversation. She always brings new insights into my own submission, since she sees it from the outside and has admitted to reading every single blog post I have posted on my blog (now at over 1200). I can see that she looks to me for how she’d like her own submissive to behave and part of me is humbled by that.

I’ve had a hard time accepting that I can be a mentor, or a guide to other submissives, even as my blog begins to shape and form as I have. I do have a bit of experience that I can share, and would love to share. I guess what always gets me hung up is that I know there are other submissives out there that I look up to as well. Do I match up? Should I even be comparing?

One of the things she said last night really struck me as the best compliment I have ever received. She said I had a grace about me when I serve that she has never seen before and finds quite lovely. I was practically without words. I did thank her for saying so, but was searching to see in me what she saw.

I admit that I try to find the beauty in serving and to show that my submission is complete for my Master. I do not know if that is done elegantly, but it is done as fully as possible. I’m very open in my expressions, which Master loves to bring out of me even more.

So, having someone I admire and respect tell me that I have grace has made me more aware of how I treat my service and how it is viewed by others. Also, this does give me license to open my mind and heart to other submissives for guidance and mentorship. Do I have the knowledge and ability to express myself non-judgmentally when asked very heart-felt, deep questions? These are the questions I now seek answers for.

The grace and beauty of service is my upmost goal. If this is how others see me, perhaps I am nearing my ultimate happiness even now.

–luna

luna is author of BDSM is Love and webslut to The Iron Gate, Sensual Service and several other BDSM web endevors. She has been active in the lifestyle for over 5 years, and has been in a 24/7 D/s relationship for just over 4 years with KnyghtMare.