My Marriage and BDSM
Posted by packingvocals on Thursday Feb 12, 2009 Under BDSM, Gay, Genderqueer, Holden, MarriageI met my lovely wife online, I was in love with her before I even met her in real life and once we did meet it just got better, and better and then even better. Within six months I’d sold my house, resigned from my job and moved to a different part of the country to be with her. A couple of years later we got married and last year embarked, unexpectedly, on a journey of discovery, a big and exciting journey that I’m sure will continue for the rest of our lives. Part of the discovery was/is my recognition of my masculinity, my butchness and my cock, although I’m biologically female, I’m also psychologically male. I fall somewhere between the recognised two genders, I say recognised because I do believe there are a myriad of different genders, not just male and female.
From these discoveries an interest and affinity with BDSM was born (as well as a love of writing). In many ways this for me is the most startling of the events in the last year, I had never before had any inkling that this was part of my nature. It feels so right that I can’t believe it hasn’t always been there, it must have been suppressed and squashed, until now. I would guess that it’s being with the right woman in the right circumstances that has brought these things out in me, perhaps if we’d never met neither of us would have recognised our topping/bottoming desires. Thankfully, we did and we can explore this new world together with the full support and love of each other.
We are an ordinary couple, we have kids, work, go shopping, do laundry, all the usual stuff and then when we have the opportunity we indulge. We spoil ourselves with the temptations of BDSM, the lure of control and the delights of power exchange. We have more toys and devices now than I even knew existed this time last year, we have been shopping in local hardware stores for hooks and chains which have been strategically placed for maximum potential. Leather cuffs excite me, leather belts thrill me and the sight of that slender leather collar round my wife’s tender throat is elating. Paddle, flogger, cane, have become extensions of my hand melding themselves so perfectly to my palm. And I look forward with intense anticipation to the times when I can take my wife over my knee and give her the spanking she so deserves.
Now that we have started this journey I can’t imagine going back to our previous vanilla ways but we will go forward together because it brings us joy. It has made us closer than ever before, it connects us, unites us, calms us and is in so many ways its the ultimate declaration of our commitment and love.







